facade

the villa

it aint mine

the house

it aint mine

the cars

it aint mine too

all the facades that ive built

its all bullshit

people are realizing

public is discovering

i am whimpering

coz daddy is no longer helping

his wealth

his generosity

i took it all

as my own glory

now penniless

friendless

abused

and disowned

deserted

nowhere to turn to

no one to look for

im all alone

my world getting smaller

my hair getting shorter

my life aint easier

turning into a miser

cheater

beater

tormentor

schemer

thats mostly me

the infamous E

whats the point

whats the point of having a wife

whats the point of wanting back a wife

when all that you are gunning for

is to bring her down

in public

you slander and whine like a bitch

behind the scenes

you beg like a bitch

either way

you are a bitch

you want attention from

a wife's misery

all you are getting

are enemies

you wanna elevate

from an incident you create

but in the end

you gonna disintegrate

jealousy

over her popularity

its hard to be

her hubby

with looks like yours

you have my sympathy

hence the jealousy

over your own wifey

no hair

no fight

no money

no pride

you are a cheater

and wife beater

tsk tsk tsk

its all about E

B or bee?

liar liar
pants on fire
the stories told
tales unfold

with each day

courage soars

B will roar

a silent victim no more

the noose is tightening

people are listening

friends are emerging

eyes are opening

B is no bee

but she is a fighting bumble bee

no longer cowering

nor hiding

guns a-blazing

you will see

support system growing

it will soon be the end of E

first follower

i have my first follower

is she a stalker?

nah it cant be

coz she is my B :)

it didnt take 5 years

more like 5 days

i am happy

coz it aint E

much love

from up above

the different time zone

means im all alone

thanks and take care B

get the f out E

Disclaimer: btw E in UK (worldwide too) is ecstasy, so you know E aint good for your health. just a general health warning like those that you get on cigarettes packet :0)

2008

twelve of april two o o eight

is a date i'd rather forget

from being hailed a saviour

now being the tormentor

oh how life has changed

and so have you

eye can see, eye can see

how we are no longer meant to be

i dont know anymore

what the hell you want us for

chicken o' chicken

thats all you are

those abusive hands

is all that you will be remembered for

a taste of paradise

it no longer is

so just pack up

and take your leave

my take on you

is shame on you

had enough of you

our time is through...

2009

do not put blind faith

in the idea of a perfect marriage

its the imperfections of a couple

towards striving for a lasting relationship

that makes a unity

seems perfect

matrix of domination

will lead you nowhere

instead turn over a new leaf

and you'll soon be there

dont be a withered rose

coz all is not a loss cause

its only a temporary glitch

coz he's being his usual b****

every broken doll is fixable

every broken heart is mendable

Allah knows and sees everything

and yes, his time will come

so chin up

be head strong

look to the future

whilst weathering the storm

friendless

you know you dont mean much when a blog of 5 years has no followers

friends, especially true friends will be by your side no matter the circumstances

they may nudge, poke and even offer an advice or two

bottom line, they will be there for you

distance at times makes the heart grow fonder

the mind thinks clearer

the space heals but wounds may not

events that happened seem smaller

but the fondness

the love

will always be there or thereabouts

ask yourself why you are lacking in true friendship

the constant lies?

the persona of importance?

the ego of a psycho?

preaching like a saint but in reality a sinner?

sooner or later, the tormented shall have their reward

once hailed as a savior

now the demeanor

how time has shown your true colours

and more

scurrying like a rat

smelling like one too (sorry to all the rats)

telling tales to any listening ear

twisting and turning half truths to full lies

we can all see through you

reflect on life

remorse

repent

be the better man (or woman)

look at all that you have preached

take the good

throw the bad

practice them well

all will be fine

then only may you have a follower or two ;)

first thoughts

here i am, absorbing all that is before me and contemplating on next course of action.

never knew wanting the best for someone would result in her being worse off.

such is the road of life when the unexpected happens.

being a pawn in this world means you just have to persevere and be head strong.

we cant turn back time but we certainly can decide the next stage of our life.

everyone says "everything happens for a reason"

so let that reason be for whatever it is, only we can control our own destiny.

i will always be here for you, never doubt that for a second.

no matter what happens, no matter whatever comes our way, no matter what destiny may bring, i will always be by your side.